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Ever We Fall - Evacuate! |
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Ive pretty much been contemplating for the past 2 or 3 months to bring this back or not, and only a really really really boring night would convince me enough to do so. Tonight is clearly that night.
School and everything has been good. I have no job however at this time, but i honestly could careless.
There was deffinately gonna be a time sooner or later that i was gonna quit, and leaving sooner was alot better then going through months more of it. Vacation hasnt been anything special at the least, besides the feeling of knowing that i dont have to wake up early in the morning or go to bed at a reasonable time at night.Besides a few nights here and there of some fun, its been kind of lame. But its a good kind of lame, a kind of lame that i could deffinately get used too and never complain about.
Honestly, things have been good on and off, and there really is no reason to complain about anything. I have friends that are there for me whenever i need them, and i appreciate that more then anything. I try to live "in the now" times i guess these days, avoiding thinking of the past as best i can. Sometimes its hard for me to think about everything thats happened this year, the good and the bad. Somethings i wish never ended, and that i never took for granted and let go. Somethings are just hard to deal with, and time is the only thing that divides going through the bad and finally being happy. Yeah, ill admit i havent been completely happy lately, and i believe i have perfect reason to feel the way i do. And there was a time where you were all i thought about everyday for a while. Theres days now where i just wanna pick up the phone and call you, to tell you how i still feel about you and how much i miss everything, more importantly how i still miss you. It just isnt the same without you, as much as i hate to admit it. Moving on wasnt something i wanted to do before, and its not something i plan on doing now.
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